Not a child anymore

I have decided to begin write in english from now on.  I feel like my thoughts need to spread worldwide for other dwellers of midnight like me.

I have windows in front of my computer screen. I can see children playing outside. When was the last time I stomped on pools of water ever increasing from the melting snow? I used to build little dams to control the torrent of water, release small boats in it made of leaves, twigs and whatnot.

I want to be a child again. But I cannot.